The movie's a wrap!!! Had my last scene on Wednesday. Went out with another love scene and I'm done. This love scene was VERY different from the previous one I told you guys about. Much more intense and heated. Where the other love scene was about a relationship and genuine feelings between two people, this final scene was ALL about lust and desire. My character cheats on his woman with her maid...in the kitchen...on the table. It's wild to do a scene like that with another person, because even though it's not completely real, it's still very sexy and you're still sharing a moment that has a very erotic element to it. Then you remember that it's pretend, there's other actors and crew standing all around watching, and then you hear "Cut!!". Very interesting duality. I can see why actors sometimes hook up after filming together. You develop a closeness (not romantic, but not far from it either) fairly quickly because you're both throwing away any insecurities you may have and building together to portray a situation, or emotion and make it believable. In doing this I think you share a very raw, naked (sometimes literally AND figuratively), intimate side of yourself, because you're basically stripping yourself down and being reborn into that situation or emotion. Intimate in the same way as a musician performing for an audience. As a performing musician I feel like I expose a very personal, raw, intimate side of myself when I'm sharing my music with an audience and I think that's what fans are drawn to. I know when I see someone who is putting off a very honest, raw energy, I'm definitely drawn closer in. This is the bond I've experienced to some degree between actors. Granted, everybody was EXTREMELY cool and got along very well on this set. I was told it's not always like that. I can only imagine how difficult it would be to work with someone you REALLY don't like. I heard some fuckin' HILARIOUS stories of on-set disgust and sabotage.
Anyway, the whole experience was one of a lifetime for me. Definitely something I'm going to explore more. I'm the type of cat who wants to be constantly challenged and pushed out of my comfort zone to reach new levels of knowledge about myself and my abilities and acting has DEFINITELY done that!
So that's it y'all! I tried to bring you along with me on this adventure as often as I could. Hope you enjoyed it as much as I did!!!